Freeeezing.

lazy. freezing. don’t want to drive brother home from work. tired. just wants to cuddle up in bed and read my book.

man =( school is creeping up so quickly =/ sigh.

n where has everyone been lately.

been feeling so alone. yet doesn’t want to be bothered by anyone. especially her mommy. mom’s been getting on my every nerve lately. i just want to be home, alone. do my own thing. go out. chill.

a little freedom please.

something’s not quite right feeling. but i can’t really put my finger on it. =/ sigh*

sick.

literally sick.

i think it’s from lack of sleep > < . sadly. was fine this morning… sorta… went out to boxing day shop. dint’ get much sleep but i was pumped. exhausted. but pumped.

after shopping round one early at like 7am with mom. walked WEM with EJ. and x-x i mean.. iw as feeling very tired. but i din’t know i was sick… or getting there. half of Avatar definitely did it for me. =(

i liked the half of it i watched. but i’m disappointed i din’t get to finish =( so sucky for being sick. i had to bail. i never bailed a movie before. so sad =(

threw up in the bathroom. =( so sucky. i think i got a lil on someone’s shirt = ( so embarrassing. but i apologized. and she said it was okay… cuz what else would she say. =/ but i felt HORRIBLE. =( i’m sorrry girl. very very very very sorry.

and shopping. i bought nothing. nothing at all. WOW. fails.

feeling hungry. but doesn’t seem to be able to taste much .. yucky taste in her mouth right now.

sorry lyndon for bailing on the movie. and making u bail part of it for coming to find me and me ending up leaving. so sorry. thanks for the bubble tea.

mom & brother were too noisy for me to have a completely undisturbed rest.

hoping to get some goood sleep tonight and be ready to party tomorrow. *crosses fingers*

wish me well soon. (:

Merry christmas

Merry Christmas all!

I hope everyone has a wonderful
Christmas and a safe one spent with all their family, friends or anyone really. Best wishes, enjoy the warmth n love of the season and I hope everyone spreads the love and wishes as well ^^

Merrrrrrry Christmas !!! (:

snow day

the snow was amazingly beautiful today. but i got tired of sweeping it off the car so many times and driving in it. it got to the point, i couldn’t see through the windshield.

i got a haircut today. end of story. nothing crazy new, nothing special. all the same. except i don’t particularly like one part of it. or some parts of it. i do like my bangs. it just doesn’t seem to go with the rest of it. for some particularly odd reason.

i am ranting i know. i’m waiting for my drama to download so i can start watching my day away tomorrow (; in the meantime, i should clean up a bit. and get comfortable. ^^

reorganize, refresh …

lol. i cannot think of anymore titles !

anyhow, i did absolutely nothing today except played some piano and reorganized all my piano sheets ! ALL OF THEM. (: and printed some more new ones.

other than that, i taught my mom how to send e-cards, which she found to be amazing and wanted all my cousin’s emails to send them some. she also found it to be amazing that she could email more than one recipient at once. she was like O_O .

n i rummaged through our bookshelf of old books while she was doing that, since she needed me to guide her … then my allergies started up. that tells u how dusty it is in the basement.

i also skimmed an entire book (short book) called “write now!” or was it “write it!” i forget, but it was a quick guide to writing short stories haha. it was quite the enjoyable read. makes me want to write, but i’m lazy. haha. we’ll see. i want to see my story filmed. lmao i don’t wanna see it on paper first. haha. x)

n so many dramas to watch, yet i’m actually LAZY to watch. i only wanna watch the TVB one – “the beauty of the game”

and. . . i downloaded “the proposal” i think i should watch it soon.

gift wrapping !

i think i spent the whole day, wrapping 3 gifts, how sad. that blue ribbon drove me nuts!

and the sad thing is, i just finished cleaning up, & realized i had one more gift to wrap -.-

oh well. tomorrow, what should i do . . . play some more christmas carols ?

EJ's belated birthday gift

stealing secret santa gift ~

my other secret santa ^^

i just love the bow of the last one, i made it out of leftover xmas wrapping paper too ! (: conserve, conserve, conserve.

i miss…

i miss him. <– click. a whole new blog. just about missing him, starting day 01.

today, i shopped 5 hours alone today. but i enjoyed it. i was moving at my own pace. trying on things i may never try. but my feet hurt. my arms are tired. i’m sleepy. i’m drained.

my mind was all blanked. and focused when shopping. n i did not want to be bothered.

i came home. and immediately, thoughts of dork.

in other words, 60$ spent on 2 secret santa’s + 1 belated birthday present. not too bad i would say, considering that got me about 4 items. that being, not chocolate.

piano was enjoyable this morning. walking in heels in the sludgy snow was not. but feeling pretty in my heels today was a major plus. i felt good.

i feel tired now. & well… kinda alone.

time for bed.

12.18.09

goodbye my love.

~The Fairytale Ending~

start of the xmas shopping spreee ~

oh my. here’s some pictures from my sleepover night the other night @ andi’s. which we spended our morning eating breakfast at smitty’s. (i’m lazy to edit any pictures)

drinks anyone?

pooh slept over too !

& today, during upass, there was this girl i was working with, who was over-enthus. and really, she’s nice. but it got on my nerves a bit. i think i’m just tired. anyhow, what else. it was so boring tho, that we ended up making origami.

& Saw so many cute little kiddies today. we gave him a ninja star with smelly markered papered. and he was like “it smells like a diamond, it smells like a light” awhhhhhhhhhhh ~

then i went for my ENP, which took 5 mins. and then, i went shopping with siaw ! & it was sucha fun day. my feet are so tired. and there was a lot of waiting for the bus after. but omg. haha sucha funfilled night.

not even close to finishing xmas shopping. i just wanna buy stuff for myself right now lmao. x)

anywho tho, i saw .. yvonne, viet, vincent, chris chuy, some random high school ppl that prolli don’t recognize me, and i think i saw mark kwan. lol yar. that’s a lot of ppl.

what else.. oh right. there was one worker, we went into hollister and he was like “what’s up” lmao that threw me and siaw off guard cuz usually u get a “hi” or something. so we just smiled and had no idea how to respond. it was hilarious. there was lots more that happened too. but i’m too tired to think now.

here’s some stuff i got.

mom wants me to save it for CNY

(: i want to wear it !

I WANNA READ YOTSUBA 6&7 but it’s for ameel so i’ll wait till she reads it first !

one of the few mangas i read

n again. i have more things to think about. but i think … i have come to a decision and hopefully it’ll be solved soon. i still nom joo a lot. but this might be better.

oh p.s. the best nursing 291 group, that kept me alive and pulled me thru 291 ! oh it’s missing one person unfortunately in the picture ~

best nursing 291 girls ever !

…good night…

standing by ~ off to the side

i don’t want to assume. but i felt this way all this time. so i do wnana take the time to spill it to him. but when. when should i do it.

just wrote a diary entry, n spilled it to myself. n tried to figure it out a little, n sort thru my own thoughts first, because i know i’ll be a mess when he asks me. but i still don’t know what i want to do in the end. & maybe that is a clear sign that i wasn’t ready for anything to begin with. and aren’t ready yet.

but i always hoped someone would stand by me and guide me thru it. maybe, he is not the someone. or perhaps, i’m just asking too much.

that plus, i probably know nothing about this stuff.

time to sleep on it. again. & perhaps…

events of the day:

- saw the cutest baby at a family restaurant today, & the mother tried to feed him some maple syrup by pouring it into his mouth o_O. not sure if the baby enjoyed it so much. cuz dad had to wipe him off a bit after.

- bored to death today & accomplished nothing.

- really wanting to go shopping

- & really wanting some time away from the parents

…wants time alone… & with u.